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Fri, 15 Feb 2013 20:02:43 +0100

Mooving on

Fri, 15 Feb 2013 19:59:50 +0100

I should not focus about it , just take it positively , if that makes sence … MOOVE ON . It’s okay , it is okay .. isn’t it ? yes , it is !!

What a mess

Fri, 15 Feb 2013 19:55:56 +0100

I’m getting soooo pissed at this , it’s not suposed to work like that , We are supposed to know before everyone else , not the contrary . Fuck that. I mean , we are the ones fucking working our asses off to get this to work properly and all of it gets fucked as if you blew a fucking candle ?

Not even a mail to let us know today ? fuck you , I feel fucking betrayed , woooooaaaah , all I’ve done for nothing ?

Well you know what ? you can fuck away .. I really don’t appreciate this. I’m more angry than gutted actualy , although I’m very VERY disgusted , but maybe and just maybe I should not take it like that ?

Maybe it is supposed to be a surprise ? A bad surprise but still one …. I don’t know man , I have no idea what’s going on in her head .I want to know … Sooo She’s probably waiting for another info or something to send us a mail ? I don’t know but I hate being the last one to know , it’s my work after all isn’t it ? I mean , I give sooo much for this and what do I get in return ? bad surpsrises … I really hope to get a mail soon . I should probably not take it the bad way, even though I am really disapointed I should think about it differently , I mean , I’m just a fan , why would be more advantaged than the others ? I can’t have it all after all , right ?

Woooooot ?!

Wed, 05 Dec 2012 22:01:00 +0100

I didn’t post for a while now. I wasn’t feeling like writing and posting. But I’m here and I’m totally overwhelmed. Something strange happened. Few days ago, this feeling came from nowhere and with no reason. I woke up a morning with nothing, I feel empty inside. It was like I died during the night. I’m not living anymore: I’m surviving.

Everything was good until that night. I don’t feel anything. I’m not depressed, I’m happy, I’m sure I am but I don’t feel like I am.

Hope you’ll never have to live this situation because it’s quiet weird.

-S

what

Wed, 28 Nov 2012 17:29:22 +0100

What am I gonna do with my life ? What do I want to do and what am I good at ? What do I love ?

Questions , questions …. Once I answer one I have another fucking question coming my way .

-M

Just been to Rita Ora’s show , she was amazing ! Woow ! She was so beautifull and It...

Thu, 15 Nov 2012 23:11:00 +0100

Just been to Rita Ora’s show , she was amazing ! Woow ! She was so beautifull and It was my first time in a night club .. this night club was a kind of classy chick night club , not something for me LOL , I’m from the ghetto .Anyways , she fucking killed it tonight , I don’t regret anything , I love life , wow , so many things I still haven’t done in my life , I’m so young , but I have to enjoy life now … This is life: something that makes you so happy ! Wow, i’m overwhelemed .I want to live this moment again and again . Incredible experiences that we live , I need more ! I want to taste life ! I want to embrace it ! I want to do everything and to enjoy it !

-M

what a bitch

Wed, 14 Nov 2012 15:52:00 +0100

I hate this teacher . I expected it but I hate her . She could have waited, anyways , I guess it’s time to get shit done.

oficially hate early mornings .. as If I didn’t do before , especialy when it’s back to...

Mon, 12 Nov 2012 08:04:58 +0100

oficially hate early mornings .. as If I didn’t do before , especialy when it’s back to school and you have plenty of tests in the day.

Fuck

-M

The temptation is too much . I can’t help myself -M

Sun, 11 Nov 2012 17:14:00 +0100

The temptation is too much . I can’t help myself -M

HOLY FUCKING SHIET

Sat, 10 Nov 2012 19:36:51 +0100

Oooh , that’s bad! very bad ! I’m having catastrophic grades ! It’s massively worrying ! I should sort this out ! and be more responsable about my life , it’s time to change . I have to do something about this or I won’t get graduated this year , I don’t want to be in high school next year because If I am … I’m fucked , I want to move on and start my life , I will have much more free time as I will be in uni but if I realy want this , I need to do something about it I’m too much of a speaker , I say stuff but I don’t do things… hum , that’s bad, very bad , I’m not proud of my self , school isn’t a kind of game , it’s a place where people eat you alive . I have to kill them even before they stab me in the back , I may sound a little bit too much but if I don’t do anything from now , I will get cut . It’s a sort of HUDGE vicious game . Get things done , that’s what I need to do .

-M

Shit ?

Sat, 10 Nov 2012 19:36:43 +0100

I don’t know what should worry me the most … The fact that we are in hollidays for 2 weeks and I haven’t done anything for school or the fact that I don’t even give a flying fuck ? I tend to think that I am putting too much pressure on me but on the other side , isn’t it good to be pressured ? even if I suffer ? ( but that won’t lead me anywhere so … let’s not do it anymore ) After experiencing the most intense and hurtfull 2 month of my accademic life , I think that I should not put this much pressure on myself , I should not procrastinate , I should get things done and organise my life and my stuff because it’s all just a test , but if I fail.. I’ll be pretty fucked up because if I don’t gratuate and get my diploma this year , I’ll have to start it all over agin witch is something that I surely don’t want to do . So I am motivated and ambicious , but I need to get things SORTED ! I should put education/school as my first priority and spend a little bit less time on superficial stuff like the internet ( this is the main issue , I spend wayyy too much time on my laptop ) .and just get my homeworks done and read a book for a change , I feel like lately I have found the envie to read again ( thanks to my friend who gave me her book to read ) so that’s good … escaping from reading is a better way than escaping on the internet .Anyways , the main point of this post is to tell how fucked up I am . and how I should change things. But I guess that I’m just a normal 17 years old teenager who haven’t done anything the past 2 weeks because she was fed up and tired of school I mean COME ON , the teachers are putting a hell of a lot of pressure on us , it’s like a survival contest , Fuck them all , I guess they just want what’s best for us but please , can you just stop and chill for a bit ? thank you . Sincerely . a mindfucked student .

PS : I hope you got my point .

-M

Holidays over

Sat, 10 Nov 2012 19:00:12 +0100

I can’t believe I’ll meet Rita Ora ! I’m so excited but I have to hide this excitment. My parents will never know that. I didn’t do my homeworks yet but actually… I don’t give a ~~fuck~~.

Today, I ate to much *as always* but I couldn’t do it, all my family was at home. So I’m hating myself.

I don’t wanna go back to school.

Fuck, fuck & fuck

-S

Heading to see Rita Ora live next week and maybe have a little chat with her ! Amazing I gotta...

Sat, 10 Nov 2012 00:15:35 +0100

Heading to see Rita Ora live next week and maybe have a little chat with her ! Amazing I gotta find something , an excuse for my parents tho .. my dad won’t be here so it’s easier , I guess it’s a sign .Anyways , that’s great !

-M

Hey , Lately I’ve been thinking about how I have been 2 weeks ago .I did not like anyone or...

Thu, 08 Nov 2012 23:56:00 +0100

Hey ,

Lately I’ve been thinking about how I have been 2 weeks ago .I did not like anyone or anything anymore , I was confused , there was no balance anymore in my life , I hated school , people , my familly , y self , my job , I hated everything . Life had no point for me . It was like a depression ,I’m actualy realizing that I almost fail into that trap . ” DEPRESSION ”, All the signs were there , I was going to school without any aim , I didn’t want to be there , I faked every smile I made , I got angry for every little thing. I wasn’t even in a mood for a joke but I did hide all that because I don’t want people to see me like this .We all have a dark side but mine is very special. I wouldn’t want anyone to explore it.So , between the bad grades , my parents arguing between them and with me about school , the pressure that I support everyday from my teachers , the job thzat I hate and I have to run to everyday , I didn’t even think that it was worth it.I remember just going home , getting in my bedroom , and crawling to the floor crying my eeyes out because of my day , that felt horrible and the last thing I wanted to do it to get this sorted , I didn’t want to make any efforts to have better grades ,I didn’t want to do anything but stay in front of my computer and tweet , post ,randomly talk ….I’ve never lived anything like that in my whole life , even when my mum used to beat me and I would cry everyday , but back then , It was not just as big as now . I mean , at home , there is nothing going on , except her arguing with my dad and making my life a living hell when it comes to grades and school , but everything was wrong with my friends , and with school , and , basically everything .and I knew back then and still that I am very lucky to have a life like this one , but every thing can be so much better . But now, I’m better . I’ve been in hollidays for almost 2 weeks now , and I have school pretty soon so , I should get my homeworkds(that I haven’t started at all ) done . but somehow I don’t even care about them , I mean , I don’t even feel like touching my books or anything -.-. Anyways , this whole post was to say that I almost fell into depression and I am better now because I support no pressure for now , but I’m sure that as soon as I get school again , some things are going to change…

-M

rin-sohma-the-horse: ‘I’m sorry for the person I became.’ -S

Thu, 08 Nov 2012 17:51:45 +0100

rin-sohma-the-horse:

‘I’m sorry for the person I became.’

-S

What the fuck ?

Thu, 08 Nov 2012 16:31:18 +0100

I don’t know what’s happening ! What’s wrong with me ? Arrrrg ! I don’t feel I’m able to do it even if I am. I have the time but I’m sure of the contrary. It’s stupid. I really can not study. It’s like an allergy. Everyone tells me I am wasting my life. I KNOW ! Another failure and I am done. I can’t bear critics anymore. School is becoming my nightmare.

Anyways I am not the perfect daughter and I will never be. They have to get used to disappointment.

-S

Slightly Pissed 07/11/2012 14:13

Wed, 07 Nov 2012 14:18:41 +0100

Hey , so here is my rant .

So today is a day like the others , we are in hollidays since last week , it’s almost over , and I haven’t done anything for school yet , but somehow I don’t realy give a fuck .I’ll work later.But that’s not what I want to talk about , I’m pissed coz’ I had some bad news. I was planning a lot of things and it’s all over.But It’s kind of a relief because now I have more time to prepare my self for this so , the balance is making this better for us .Anyways , I should get back at the lecture of this book my friend gave me to read .

Quite Random for a first Rent but I’m sure I’ll get better at writting by the time.

Ciao

-M

Intro

Wed, 07 Nov 2012 14:12:27 +0100

Hello , so this blog is about all the bullshit that me and she are going to talk about , If you are depressed , I would not suggest you too read some of these . Basicaly we are going to write about everything…Sad and happy moment / things that happen to us in our life everyday …

We are 2 girls sharing with you some of our everyday life/experiences.